What a friggen week.

Work has been crazy for me the past week and I am sure it'll be just as crazy this coming one as well. Kitchen work sucks and I am on such a tight schedule I barely have time to scratch my ass let alone do any writing. I thought in my laziness today I could force something out.

Went to a birthday party yesterday with a heap of people I didn't really know. It was interesting and the funny part was I wasn't anxious at all. Granted I had a few drinks and that calmed me a bit but other than that no anxiety attacks. My therapist Paul would have been proud I think. I did what he said talked a heap of small talk and just got through it. It really helped that Mik and his family were there to be my safety net.

Now that I've gotten through that test I have to just keep it up until I become comfortable and it becomes second nature. I CAN DO IT.

All for now. Think of me as I am sweating my ass off and schmoozing with the oldies at work!

An actual post.

So, it's turning into winter here. I am loving the cooler weather, seems like summer goes on for half a year here in South Australia. Cool weather makes me feel all romantic and like the holidays should be coming up but alas, on the other side of the planet no holidays in sight.

I've been thinking a lot and I really need to get back into writing. I miss going deep within myself and spewing my inner most me onto a page. It makes me remember that I do feel, and that I do have the ability to express myself in a creative outlet. I like to bottle things up sometimes and it's easier to just push my feelings away and deal with them later on. Which as everyone knows always leads to some major explosion or breakdown.

I need to learn to love life no matter what it throws at me and to think of hurdles as minor speed bumps. As my psychologist says " It may be uncomfortable, but it won't cause you physical pain." Which seems to be working for me when I know shitty situations are inevitable.

I've been thinking about my cousin a lot lately. I really look up to him. He's living his life the way he wants. Creating amazing music, performing, writing, and just living life. He always tells me how much I rock but, I really just don't feel it! I suppose I just can't see what another sees. He makes me miss home and all the time I have missed out with everybody. All the times I have missed out on getting to know everybody and to involve myself with people I love so much. It makes me feel guilty that I have distanced myself so much all these years. I guess it was inevitable as I get older that these thoughts come into my brain.

I am very lucky to have traveled as much as I have but it has always come at a cost.


I suppose that's all for now. If anyone actually reads this anymore I will try and keep up with the blog even if it's only once a week.

I wish I could shift my whole family out here. I really miss them! This is my home now and thats how I feel, I just wish my family was with me so I can share all these new experiences with the ones I love.

Otis.

He really is too cute for his own good.

The twelve apostles.

Along the Great Ocean Road. It was an amazing drive.

Fern babies

We're broadbanded! It's fantastic to be in the land of modern technology again. Dial up is definitely not for me. I have zero patience when it comes to technology and it's slowness. So, yeah, it's really lovely being able to access web pages quicker then five minutes at a time. I am seriously hoping to post a lot more often now. I have loads of photos to share and entertaining stories to tell.
Not too much more for tonight, work tomorrow.
Nursing home hijinx in the kitchen.

Wiiiiiiiiii.

So it's my birthday right. I suppose it had to happen sooner or later. I've really been dreading this one. For some reason I just can't be happy about the fact that I've turned 30. Mik keeps telling me that 30 is nothing, he is going to be turning 40 in 3 and a half years. It's different for a girl though. Our brains work differently when it comes to aging, I swear it!

I did get a kick ass birthday prezzie though. I got a Nintendo Wii! What an awesome gift. We had the best time this weekend virtually playing tennis, boxing and bowling! It's all almost better then doing the real thing. I'm even sore as hell!


My Wii arm is broke.

Time does certainly fly.

It's almost been a year since I've actually sat down and even looked at my blog. Things have been really wonderful with the exception of my soul draining job. Working at a nursing home just makes you want to A) die before you get to that age of being institutionalized, B) appreciate fresh air, and C) makes you really depressed.

I suppose other than that Mik and I have been living our lives as we were always meant to be, together. We are two big kids just meandering through everything. It's lovely having that.

Blogs, Married Life, and Primative Internet Services.

I know, I know, I sure have left this space a bit ghost town-esque. Life happens I suppose and I've been really bloody busy.

Mik and I have gotten married. Finally! All that bitching and moaning about not being together and WHAM, we've done it.

Job hunt went well, I am working two jobs now. Which is great considering it's extremely boring hanging out at home all day. So now I make money! I am really enjoying work here one of my jobs is retail. The other one is working at a nursing home, cleaning and working in the kitchen. Not glamorous but it pays a hell of a lot more than what I was making in the states.

Mik and I have settled down quite nicely. Getting into the normal routine of working and being an old married couple. We are really loving life right now.

As for the internet service. Well out here we can only really get dial-up. Is that enough said? If we want to get satellite it would cost us big time, and seeing since we are both so cheap we will wait until the price goes down or they bring in cable internet. So as far as making posts it takes a long time to upload and post blog entries. Thus part of the reason I have been so slack in making entries.

Well, I suppose that's all for now. We are going to go be domestic and get some groceries. Hope all is well with everyone. Take care and BE GOOD.