Ah this depression bullshit is starting again..and exactly the wrong moment...the moment I have to be the strongest...for me and for him..I can just feel myself slipping deeper and deeper back into that fucking hole...when is it just going to close up..seal up so I can't slide back down that bitch..

I pray all this makes me stronger...and doesn't jade me to the point where I can't recover...from the drugs..from my broken promises...that grip on my emotions