In the mood for some EROTIC ART

I don't ever want to hear the words fuck-and-fest together ever again.

One Last Goodbye
Anathema

F#-G
how i needed you
D-Bm
how i grieve now you’re gone
F#-G
in my dreams i see you
D-Bm
i awake so alone

F#-G Em
i know you didn’t want to leave
D-Bm A
your heart yearned to stay
F#-G Em
but the strength i always loved in you
D-Bm A
finally gave way

G Bm A
somehow i knew you would leave me this way
Em Bm A
somehow i knew you could never stay
Em
and in the early morning light
Bm A
after a silent, peaceful night
Em Bm A
you took my heart away

F#-G F#-G
in my dreams i can see you
D-Bm D-Bm
i can tell you how i feel
F#-G F#-G
in my dreams i can hold you
D-Bm D-Bm
and it feels so real

F#-G G-Em
i still feel the pain
D-Bm A
i still feel your love
F#-G G-Em
i still feel the pain
D-Bm A
i still feel your love

G Bm A
and somehow i knew you could never never stay
Em Bm A
and somehow i knew you would leave me
Em
and in the early morning light
Bm A
after a silent, peaceful night
Em
you took my heart away
Bm A
oh i wish, i wish you could have stayed

E- Bm- A

Took to many codeines..I feel pretty numb...feels good right now...Sometimes I wonder if i'm crazy sometimes..I think I may be..But not crazy enough to be thrown into a hospital...That would break me I believe..I am praying what little strength I have left and what strength he's extending to me will be enough to get me through this bullshit.

I wonder lots...Is it enough to ruin someones heart in order to appease mine?
Will I be able to make it alone...while I wait for my knight?
Am I going to let this fear take over me and stifle what could be?

Am I so cold? So fucking selfish...A liar...Do I deserve any happiness?

Help me....hold me....push me.....love me...take me....

If I can't get through this...I mine as well roll over and die.

Ah this depression bullshit is starting again..and exactly the wrong moment...the moment I have to be the strongest...for me and for him..I can just feel myself slipping deeper and deeper back into that fucking hole...when is it just going to close up..seal up so I can't slide back down that bitch..

I pray all this makes me stronger...and doesn't jade me to the point where I can't recover...from the drugs..from my broken promises...that grip on my emotions

Reality